I met Vinnie about seven years ago. As anyone who knew me in Bloomfield knows, I was obsessed with Holsten's. Luckily enough, Vinnie worked there. However, in a case of bad timing, I started dating another Holsten's worker (apparently I had a thing for Holsten's boys). Soon enough, a month later, that relationship fizzled out, and Vinnie and I started talking again. I started visiting Holsten's so frequently, that Vinnie would start scooping lemon ice for me as soon as I walked through the door.
After a while of on and off talking, good days and bad days, complications, and bad timing, our conversations faded, and soon enough I realized instead of talking every couple of hours, we would talk every couple of months.
While I was at college we kept in touch: inquire about each other lives, update each other on what was going on, give the inevitable "I miss you," and be on our way.
However, this summer, the small talk that seemed to take over our friendship, turned into the feelings that we used to share back in high school. At the beginning of August, Vinnie and I started to talk how we used to talk: all day, every single day.
I would wake up with a text from him every single morning, and honestly he was one of the people who helped me get through moving down here, encouraging me I could do it, and that he would be waiting for me when I came back. The smiles he gave me would get me through the day, and I thought I'd share a few excerpts with you all from our recent conversations--from our last conversations--to see how indescribably wonderful he was.
Aug. 17:
Me: Getting pretty, then going to hang with some friends
Vin: Getting pretty? You don't need to 'get' pretty, your the definition of pretty
Aug. 17:
Vin: We should do nerdy things together in the future
Aug 17:
Vin: Wish we didn't live so far apart, tonight's a lemon ice night lol
Me: Me too, id love some lemon ice.
Aug. 28:
Vin: I know this is random but I'm really digging that picture I liked before. Your absolutely gorgeous.
Aug 28:
Vin: If we were in chilling distance, I'd make you smile a lot more, and get you a flower or something corny like that
Aug 28:
Vin: You've always been pretty as hell.
Aug 29:
Me: I had no one to lay with me
Vin: One day...
Sept 10:
Vin: I'm glad I can make at least one person smile
Me: Me too.
Sept 10:
Vin: I'm about to pass out, g'nite angel.
Sept 11
Me: Come on down
Vin: If I had the money I'd be there in a heartbeat.
Me: I know you would, a girl can dream right?
Vin: Of course.
Sept 11:
Vin: Debating on taking a walk
Me: Walk to me, it's only like 1200 miles
Vin: I'll run
Sept. 12
Vin: Can't sleeeeeeeeep
Vin: :(
Vin: Wish I was next to you, goodnight
Sept 12
Vin: I've been feeling so empty lately Cat :(
Me: I wish I could help you fill that emptiness
Vin: :( I want to cuddle with you
The last conversation I had with Vinnie was last night.
Me: How is your weekend
Vin: It's okay so far
There's now a void that can't be filled. I miss everything about you already Vin. not talking to you every day is going to be the hardest part. Knowing you were changing your life around is also the hardest part--God didn't give you enough time. Not nearly enough time. You are my newest angel, and my most beautiful angel.
If you were with me tonight, I'd sing to you just one more time, a song for a heart so big, God wouldn't let it live.
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